The sadness behind smile

“ Everyone’s life concerns other’s “ heard from someone
I always believe there’s some kind of connection between humanity.
This connection heads us together, making us feel alive.
But I lose it. I can’t even find any clue in my life. The connection seems to disappear.
I am afraid. I try hard to trace my connection, to find myself meaning.

Sometimes, I really envy Frances. She met her soulmate ,Sophia. A close relationship that they can share everything.
Though, I have couple of close friends. I just dun know why I dare not open my heart to them.
Maybe I am waiting for a good listener, the right guy to listen the call inside my heart.
Will I meet that guy someday, somewhere?
This is the one we call, life parter.
The one that completes your life.

“ The place we work out together is family, isn’t it? “ words I heard from someone.
I really dun know how to answer this question.
Maybe I never feel to be in a family long time ago.
I can’t even picture how a typical family is. What will they do in the weekend?
What will they talk about. How will they celebrate in festivals.
For me, maybe, family is only a word without meaning.

I really want to know the feeling being in a family, to be one of them, since I was young.
So I always tell myself not to hurt anyone I love. I swear.