It's hard to deal with my mum

Live is tough, and this makes argue, thus become desperate and indifferent
I know, I know, it’s not easy to sustain a family.
So I am tolerant to all stuffs.
I know, this no longer a family.
Or it’s not supposed to be a family long time ago
I cannot trust, trust.....
I dun know why and I am always asking myself whats a family.
To be honest, I never feel comfortable with my family.
Or it’s not supposed to be.
My mother drives me crazy.
Or should I change myself? No matter how, she’s still my mum.
I should get my role done, as a son.
To be a responsible man.

I dun how’s wrong or right. All I can do is to love them.
And I am afraid to love a person.
My experience makes me feel family is tragedy

Maybe he is not responsible husband, but he’s a good father
Maybe she is not capable wife, but she’s a good mother

I am afraid to love a person. I am afraid tragedy may happen again.
All I learn is how to flatter girls.
Though I know I really like her, I just pretend to be a playboy.
I don’t want to reveal my other sides.

So I gotta change myself.
I will try my best to sort out all problems.
Guess what, one of my dreams is to build a happy family. Although, that’s impossible when being a child.
I am still longing for that.
Boo.... time’s up.
I gotta back to my life.
Writing a blog never solves problems.