2009年12月30日 星期三

"Happy" New Year lol

2009, a year of change.
I finally recognize my own journal
Happy to year
WElCOME THE ERA
THE TWENTY TEN

2009年12月29日 星期二

It's hard to deal with my mum

Live is tough, and this makes argue, thus become desperate and indifferent
I know, I know, it’s not easy to sustain a family.
So I am tolerant to all stuffs.
I know, this no longer a family.
Or it’s not supposed to be a family long time ago
I cannot trust, trust.....
I dun know why and I am always asking myself whats a family.
To be honest, I never feel comfortable with my family.
Or it’s not supposed to be.
My mother drives me crazy.
Or should I change myself? No matter how, she’s still my mum.
I should get my role done, as a son.
To be a responsible man.

I dun how’s wrong or right. All I can do is to love them.
And I am afraid to love a person.
My experience makes me feel family is tragedy

Maybe he is not responsible husband, but he’s a good father
Maybe she is not capable wife, but she’s a good mother

I am afraid to love a person. I am afraid tragedy may happen again.
All I learn is how to flatter girls.
Though I know I really like her, I just pretend to be a playboy.
I don’t want to reveal my other sides.

So I gotta change myself.
I will try my best to sort out all problems.
Guess what, one of my dreams is to build a happy family. Although, that’s impossible when being a child.
I am still longing for that.
Boo.... time’s up.
I gotta back to my life.
Writing a blog never solves problems.

2009年12月28日 星期一

No No No

Last light, I dined out with olive and my cousin.
Olive becomes much more beautiful. LOL However, her bro did not come with us
Haha, I don’t know why I feel that lonely. My dog had gone away from me.....
Die....Live.....
To be or not to be, thats the question
Where is the one......

Boo..... Staying at home is that cold. A cup of green tea.... hot. mist. tear.
All together seems like a dream.
And I should wake up. wake up
To decide.
To think.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​To be​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​ or not to be
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2009年12月27日 星期日

Huh, cooling down

Things are cooled down after a night. The sadness is now followed by missing.
This christmas, was that normal but special
Maybe I am going to Taiwan next year. I dun know what will happen.
Fight for our dreams
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iA_qIycirRA

Everything seems to be over

Today....sorry....I just cannot fumble any right word to describe.
alrite, I know it will be fine.
But it really needs some time.
Everything will back to normal, right
HAHA...sign

Will we like the couples in
Serendipity, maybe we somehow meet somewhere ten years later.
though I know it’s that impossible, I am dreaming of it

Thing always appears in wrong time and place. In chinese, we say “天意弄人”.
thats life, full of ups and downs.

Be positive. . . . . .

What am I suppose to be

What am I supposed to be.
I should be strong
There’s still many thing that Im supposed to do
I have play my role and so do you
Okay. I don’t believe in fate.
Keep fighting

2009年12月26日 星期六

A 'great' surge out of expectation

Umm...
Today, I woke that early. There’s something riddling in my mind
I dun know what she feel of me right now. But I know time will make it clear.
You know, love is never an easy stuff. It’s interactive. Not saying that she will like you even though u’ve devoted all yourself to her.
So it’s not easy to find your beloved one. It’s seeming that the future is full of mist, but I must face up to it.
Thats me. No matter, what is it at the end. I will be proud of myself, coz I never hide myself the feelings to her, and I have already done what I suppose to do.

btw, I’ve just finished the maths and amaths lessons.
tiresome
It’s the time for meditation, to think about my life and my future.
There’s still so many people in china need help.
What can I do for my country. How can we, chinese, upgrade the civilian standard?
What I can do now is studying. Sign....

Tonight, is that special

Today I went to Shatin and took some photo.
And I bought a cup of hot chocolate in starbucks
Though its that hot, my heart did’t feel even a gleam of heat.
I don’t know why I am so missing her.
In scientific view, thats only because of reaction of chemicals.
All I know is I am missing her.
That will be dream.

She’s really a smart girl, and it’s not easy to get along with her.
But I guess we’ll be happy together.
To be honest, I seldom get feeling to girls, except her.
Weird. But I know I really like her. Thats never wrong.
When it’s the right time, I will tell her all I feel.

為樂當及時,何能待來之
人生得意須盡歡,莫使金樽空對月


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2009年12月25日 星期五

Last Night! Ohhh

Last night, I had dinner with my relatives. So far so good.
My little cousin bought an explosion pill (爆丸)
What an awkward translation it is?

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Lovely cousin with his brand-new explosion pills costed $28 HK dollar. XP

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There’s also some photo of christmas service.
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A nice day! Hope all of you have a enjoyable christmas vacation.
Best wishes

2009年12月24日 星期四

Well, another blissful day!?

Ah Love, Love, … Love, Love, Love, Love, Love. (by Ronberge)
What is it with Love
That makes me
then breaks me?

When in love
Do I truly love?

Is it really love
Or do I think that I love?

Maybe I just love being in love
Or love the idea of being in love?

I spent my whole life chasing love.
In the end the one thing I truly love
Could just be the meir pursuit of love.



Sometimes I really confused in love, whether I love her or just love being in love.
Echo appears in my heart when reading poem.
It’s the time for me to rethink LOL

But Lucifer told me
“It’s just a game, why so serious”
“ A game, A game, A game?” I think deeply, drifting around my home.

I love games XP

Today I went yum cha with my mum
nothing special

And now, I decide to flip through my text book and my brain is wandering right now
What I am typing? LOL
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Game Over? Maybe.....

It’s seems that the game is over, maybe, But I see a chance right over there.
Yes, it’s just over there. Lets see whats the final consequence.
But, by contrast, I like her because I think she is energetic, optimistic, good-hearted and a serious girl, so I’d not expect she will change her heart to me after her ex has gone.
That’s the point and situation, and I resonate.
When I saw the photos, you know what, jealousy stabbed into my heart.
That is the most vivid feeling since I’ve known her. Though our acquaintance was that spongy, or even we’re not supposed to know each other. But it really doesn’t matter, I cherish every moment chatting with her, Maybe she will never know my feeling, but it still doesn’t matter, because I have already devote my to loving a person. Though this experience is quite bitter, thats life, isn’t it?
But I will not give up right now, coz no one knows what will happen. XP
As I said, “ I am a totally opportunist.” I will not give up any possible chance.
Maybe writing this blog is also behind my plan, who knows. LOL

A bit confused

My mind tells me not to think of her, but actually I can’t
Especially today, however, I know I’ll soon forget this nuisance and return to norm
I must stop myself, and the best way is studying.
Sometimes I really ask myself whether it is love, or just curiosity
To be honest, I dun really know much about her. But I do have some feelings to her, STRANGE
I cannot explain them with words. It seems there is a great distance between us.

But I really do not mind, I choose to face it. In my experience, the best way to deal with emotion is to face it straightly. I do not believe in fate, but yuan. About yuan, it is hard to explain. Just like those who believe in god.

The engine of romance stops LOL
Just a game, Win or lose.Whats the big deal?

Have nice day, fellows
best wish to all of you and Marry Christmas
Hope that all of u can find your beloveds



THINKING THINKING THINKING. Zzzzz.......

2009年12月23日 星期三

Christmas Eve

Today is christmas day, and I stay at home....
And watching Wong Chi Wa ‘s comedy.